Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Literature / Hobbyist Core Member Yenz Maelstrom30/Male/United States Recent Activity
Deviant for 2 Years
3 Month Core Membership
Statistics 118 Deviations 2,228 Comments 9,984 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

Skadi by S0ulafein :iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 3 3
Literature
Minotaur
The Minotaur Race

Art by: Sleyf
Origins
Minos saw his friend Centos walking amongst creatures that looked very similar to him, upon Vesevia. Minos sailed the Caspiatric Rover from the Celestial Plane, straight into the ground next to Centos and his new tribe of Centaur. After discussing what Centos was doing, and who these new mortals were, Minos decided he would do the same. He took several oars from the Caspiatric Rover, and several of his most loyal souls, and brought them together. He carved little bull headed people that looked like himself, and pushed the souls of those loyal to him, into them. Then he breathed life into the creations and set them loose in the world. Some went crazy and began eating each other. He tried to ignore those. The rest formed the first tribe of Minotaur.
Minotaur Subraces
N/A
Statistics
Name
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 1 4
Mature content
Araminta the Nymph :iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 1 0
Literature
Sa'Rae:
Name: Sa'Rae
AKA: N/A
Class: Thief
Race: Human/High Elf Hybrid
Gender: Male
Accent: English
Languages: English
Abilities: N/A
Info: His father was a High Elf, and his mother a Human. They loved him, but the community did not. They lived on the outskirts of town, and when the zombies came his parents were killed. The town figured 'good riddance' and decided not to take him in. He was left to die, but instead found a way to live. He steals, to live, and lives to steal. He especially loves stealing from Humans because they see him as a disgrace. He has no love for High Elfs either but has yet to meet one other than his father.
He fled to the centre of Firstlandia, hoping to find someone to take him in. He even tried being nice, despite how he felt. But having found none that would take pity on a hybrid like himself, he turned to thievery and banditry. He learned the hard way to use a dagger one night when a drunk tried to kill him. He was forced to pick his pocket
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 0
Literature
Kitty:
Name: Kitty
AKA: N/A
Class: Rogue
Race: Human/Rakshasan Hybrid
Gender: Female
Accent: Rakshasan
Languages: Broken English
Abilities: Psychic; uses her psychic abilities to learn quickly. Magic; doesn't know any spells, yet.
Info: She was 7 (16 in Earth years) when she met Zyban. And by met, I mean attacked. Zyban used his Charm spell on her to keep her from killing him, but what he doesn't know is that she already liked him. She was just unsure what to do with the new feeling and attacked in frustration. His charm spell worked but changed nothing. She loves to constantly flirt with Zyban, especially because it annoys him to no end. She also loves to tease the other members of the group. It took her a lot less time to learn to speak English than it would most people due to her psychic talents, but she never mastered it and speaks in very broken English. Her accent is cute, however, so what she's saying isn't that important. Plus, trying to figure out what she means i
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 0
Literature
Zyban:
Name: Zyban
AKA: Torch, Inferno, Blaze
Class: Mage
Race: Human
Gender: Male
Accent: Irish
Languages: English
Abilities: Magic; Can sling fireballs, create a firestorm, shoot flames out of his hands, heal to a small degree, resurrect tiny animals occasionally, Charm for a short period of time (only works once on smart people), summon items he's previously marked, and teleport through wards.
Info: He escaped a University tower at the age of 7 (16 in Earth years), which until then, had been unheard of. He didn't care for anyone at the tower. His parents died in the great zombie plague that had occurred roughly ten years before. They survived until he was nearly 2 Vesevian years old. His mother was taken first, and his father followed soon after. He blamed the University for not arriving in time to save either of them. He also blamed himself, for not being strong enough to save them himself. The University took him in and trained him, and he did exceptionally well. But when they would not
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 0
Literature
Background Information:
Headquarters: Firstland
Foundation Date: 5210 AC (Age of Steel, Medieval Era, just after the great zombie plague hit)
Prominent Members:
Ziban: Human, Mage (first to escape a University)
Sa'Rae: Human/High Elf, Thief
Ronu: Forest Elf/Dark Elf (Dark Urban Elf), Archer/Hunter
Jacob: Human/Minotaur, Swordsman
Ygdrisl: Dwarf/Gnome, Gadget Master "His beard is all wrong" -Both sides say.
Kitty: Human/Rakshasan, Rogue
Mee'Tcha: Ghoul/Gnewt, Shadow Master
Vroom: Human/Pixie, Scout
Ally Vation: Human/Harpy, Ariel Scout
Blossom: Human/Fey, Naturalist
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 0
Literature
Mermaids
The Mermaid Race
Origins
Kareesha decided to swim in the ocean, but changed her mind and created a fish, but instead of a fish made an Elf, but then decided it should be a fish Elf. Soon after, Mermaids began to swim the seas. Though Kareesha created them, they primarily follow Stromos. Their culture is what they imagine Stromos would envision for them.
Mermaid Subraces
N/A
Statistics
Name: Mermaids Lifespan: 60 Vesevian Years (138 Earth Years) Height Avg: 6' (1.8 m) Weight Avg: 120 lbs (54 kg) Diet: Omnivore (seafood)  Skin Tones: White  Hair Color: Blonde, Red, Blue, Green  Eye Color: Blue, Green, Red  Special Attributes: Has both lungs, and gills.  Additional Information: Although they can stay on land for extended periods, they generally don't. Their skin is sensitive to extreme light sources. However, they do occasionally go out a
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 1 2
Literature
Liches
Description
Liches are usually powerful Sorcerers that have anchored their soul to the physical plane. This is a process that is very difficult and often kills the inexperienced. It is far better to practice on an animal first, before trying it on one's self. It involves taking a part of your own soul, or part of another's, and tying it, 'anchoring' it, to a physical object. Preferably one that will not decay over time. This makes the Lich (the one who's soul is anchored) impervious to physical weapons, disease, or age. Their body will still die, but their soul will go on, and stay on the physical plane. They won't feel hunger, pain, sadness, or any other sensation, or feeling they would have while in a body. But they will have infinite time to improve their magics. A Lich can be dispersed by another magic wielder or psychic who is more powerful. It doesn't kill them, but it makes them temporarily unable to affect the physical realm. They can be des
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 0
Literature
Kitsune
The Kitsune Race
Origins
A few thousand foxes make their way through the Between Spaces and into Vesevia. Inari Okami doesn't question it. She immediately goes to interact with the foxes. She's never seen them before but feels very close to them. Like they used to be a favourite animal of hers that she'd forgotten. After living among them for several months, she grants a hundred of them sentience and names them Kitsune. She also grants them the ability to shapeshift, but never the ability to entirely hide their true form. Though most Kitsune are solitary creatures, Inari Okami establishes their culture and shows them how to build shrines and temples. She stresses the importance of culture, but also the importance of mischief.
Kitsune Subraces
N/A
Statistics
Name: Kitsune Lifespan: 1,000 Vesevian Years (2,300 Earth Years) Height Avg: 2' (61 Centimeters) Weight Avg: 24 lbs (10
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 2
Literature
Imps
The Impish Race
Origins
Minos created the first monetary system of Vesevia and shared it with the world. He created temples in every city across the land and in those temples set up exchange tables, where items could be traded for coin, and coin could be traded for items. This kept the economy pretty well under Minos' control. Va'ise however, did not like that Minos had such control over Vesevia, where she did not. Almost entirely out of spite, she created the Impish race. To do this, she found the nearest temple of Minos and began pummelling it with fireballs. Every time a fireball hit a bag of coins, an Imp was born. Each new Imp grabbed a sack of gold and ran off into the night. By the time Va'ise was finished, 200 Imps had run off with 250 sacks of gold (some were greedier than others), and the temple was destroyed. Minos was enraged of course, but there was little he could do to her. Though he did order
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 2
Literature
Goblins
The Goblin Race
Origins
Eingar the Rabid, god of Rage, Insanity, Ignorance, and Death learned of Vesevia upon pinning Va'ise down. Rather than be mauled by the creature, Va'ise distracted him by pointing to Vesevia. He noticed its brilliant shine and immediately turned to attack it. Ves and Azur both noticed his approach and intervened. Their combined might was barely able to contain him. As Ves held Eingar, and Azur powered up the Void Stone, Navi flew by. She couldn't resist such a tempting target, and though both Azur, and Ves warned her to stay back, she did not listen. She flew right up in Eingar's face and tickled his nose. At first, nothing happened. But Navi would not be thwarted, not when such a glorious victory was so close at hand. She tickled harder, and Eingar breathed in. Navi took it as a sign that he was about to laugh, but alas, such was not the case. He sneezed such a powerful sneeze,
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 5
Mature content
Nymphs :iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 6
Literature
Gnewts
The Gnewtish Race
Origins
Roughly 1,000 years after the High Elfs were born, Quinzirra remembered that she was working on her own creation for Vesevia. She doesn't remember, however, that she'd already finished it. She takes a trip through the swamps and marshes for inspiration and eventually thinks of the Gnewts. She takes almost no time at all creating her new race and seeds them across the marshes of Vesevia in small scattered villages. No two villages are aware of one another. In fact, none of them knows anything more than of Quinzirra's existence. Even were they to know more about the outside world, they would likely keep to themselves.
Gnewtish Subraces:
N/A
Statistics:
Name: Gnewts Lifespan: 60 Vesevian Years (138 Earth Years) Height Avg: 7'6" (2.2 m) Weight Avg: 200 lbs (90 Kg) Diet: Rotting Vegetation, Fish, Insects  Skin Tones: Any colour, usually sp
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 2
Literature
The Silencer Chronicles
A temple stood the size of a mountain. Great pillars of marble shown with an inner radiance. Atop the pillars stood layers of yet more marble floors and pillars atop those. Every level of the Temple was slightly smaller than the one below it, causing a pyramidal structure. At the top sat Azur upon his throne, casting light down upon the Celestial Plane. He watched the tiny specks fight one another, on the world, Vesevia. They killed each other, and where their souls went, he did not know or care. Their God was mighty and frightening. But their deaths were sometimes noble, or amusing. So he watched.
He sighed as he heard Eve approaching. She would not approve of his inaction. She was always nagging him. “Azur!” she called. He already knew she wanted him to stop it. But it was not his place to meddle in the lives of humans. Let their God sort it out, he thought.
The Kingdom of God (God referring to the Abrahamic God of humanity) waged a bloody crusade against those that chose
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 1 6
Literature
Gnomes
The Gnomish Race
Origins
Gorm created the Gnomes on a whim. He sent them down to Vesevia as a sort of long-term experiment. Then he created Velocity so they would be taken care of because he knew he had no affinity for nurturing. The city roamed the world, and the Gnomes worked on their inventions, after establishing who had the grandest of titles, and who had the least of titles (this took them several years, and much heated discussion). Gorm checks in on them from time to time but primarily lets them do their own thing.
Gnomish Subraces
N/A
Statistics:
Name: Gnomes Lifespan: 450 Vesevian Years (1,035 Earth Years) Height Avg: 2' (60 cm) Weight Avg: 30 lbs (13.6 kg) Diet: Herbivore/Insectivore  Skin Tones: White  Hair Color: White, Red  Eye Color: Blue, Green  Special Attributes: The most technologically creative race on all of Ve
:iconSlyFlySpyGuy:SlyFlySpyGuy
:iconslyflyspyguy:SlyFlySpyGuy 0 0

Interested in Vesevia?

I have 12,000 habitable planets within the Vesevia setting. 45,000 near habitable planets (like Venus, or Mars). Any planets, moons, or solar systems beyond those numbers will have to be created by a god before the end of Vesevia's 16,000 year timeline (which is 36,800 Earth years).

Rules:
1. Nothing created can contradict existing lore (male homosexuality/bisexuality & female homosexuality do not exist among the gods of Vesevia, nor among my own races).

2. Nothing you do with your setting may effect the greater Vesevian setting.

3. Max of 1 world per person (you can allow your friends to create within the setting of your world, but you may not transfer ownership to anyone but me).

4. Each world will have a minimum of 3 minor deities left as custodians of the world, with a maximum of 9 (demigods are unlimited).

5. Use of any of the gods (excluding Tyr, Stak'kl, or Mars) is freely granted within the Vesevia setting (meaning your world).

6. Upon reaching the end of the Vesevian timeline, the history of the galaxy will be primarily written by me (if your planet is still populated at this point, their fate will be in my hands).

7. Use of any Vesevian (the planet) race is freely given, but they must be created after the date which they were created on Vesevia (as that is their origin point).

8. You may create whatever creatures you wish on your world (so long as they do not violate the IP of anyone outside of Vesevia).

9. You may make money off of anything you create within the Vesevia setting, so long as you pay 10% royalties to Vesevia on any profits made (if you use your Vesevian made OC's outside of Vesevia, there is no royalty).

10. I reserve the right to revoke permission granted to anyone for any reason.

11. As the creator of Vesevia, I (Jens Morrison) retain the rights to anything Vesevia related, with the exception of original characters/races/countries/technologies not created by me. Any original characters/races/countries/technologies created for, or brought into Vesevia grant me the irrevocable right to use them within the setting of Vesevia (and only within the Vesevia setting). This is to be considered true, even if the ownership of the original characters is transferred to a different individual.

12. You may not use the Vesevia setting, in any way that is deemed illegal by the USA, or the country in which you currently reside, or that violates the rules of this site.

If you're still interested in using Vesevia as a setting for your writing, art, or both, please send me a Note, or respond to this with a comment!

Note: If I revoke your right to create within Vesevia, you keep your OC's, I write that they left the Vesevian reality, and we part ways.
Note^2: Profit means after cost. If you sell a book for $7, but only make $0.35 profit, Vesevia's cut would be 3 cents per book sold.
Note^3: Rule #1 example, you can create homosexual elfs, but they can't be MY elfs. You can create a gay demigod, but none of my gods are homosexual. Also, you can create as many genders as you want for your own creations, however, my creations use Male and Female genders, as do my gods. None of my creations crossdress as anything other than a joke, or disguise.
Note^4: Rule #11 essentially grants me permission to use anything you create for Vesevia, irrevocably. However, you retain the rights to what you create to use outside of Vesevia how you see fit. If you leave Vesevia, I can still use what you created for Vesevia. This is here in order to keep continuity in case someone decides to leave. I don't like retconning.

Shoutbox

SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"On behalf of all High Elfs, I would just like to kindly ask that you all refrain from asking any of us to do an impression. We, as a race, are done. Please stop." -Frustrated High Elf
Sun Feb 5, 2017, 9:36 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"Flick'm an Iron, boy."
Wed Jan 11, 2017, 7:29 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"Aye, ye can cut a dwarf with a steel blade. It's the bone that'll stop ye. Y'er blade'll break or bend or chip. And dwarves'll bleed fer days."
Sun Nov 20, 2016, 9:25 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"If you were cursed by the gods, you would know it" -Va'ise
Sat Oct 29, 2016, 2:45 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"Artillery of Diamond Peak hits with such percision they don't even need snipers."
Wed Oct 26, 2016, 11:45 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
The Orkes be with us...
Tue Oct 11, 2016, 12:01 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"I chopped off a Dwarf's head once. It fell on, and broke, my foot. Touche' dwarf, touche'."
Thu Sep 15, 2016, 2:47 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"I am Venerable Dame Geh'Novi', Evedottir lineage of the Diamond Peak military. You have one chance to surrender, before we kick your souls across the river Styx. What say you, beast?"
Tue Sep 13, 2016, 6:57 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
Try escaping from the afterlife. If you can get past the river, and the hounds, you'll be greeted with a brand new body on the physical plane. If not...well...someone's gotta feed the hounds...
Tue Sep 6, 2016, 12:41 AM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
Trying to work on Salem Magi. It's one of my first, and longest stories written in Vesevia. It's about a young girl that becomes a mage.
Fri Sep 2, 2016, 12:03 AM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
If anyone's interested in finding out the in depth information I've got on each race, take a look: vesevia.wikia.com/wiki/Categor…
Fri Aug 26, 2016, 3:08 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"Yes, I'm a Vampire, and yes I could tear off your head and drain you of your precious red nectar in the time it would take you to blink once. I have not however. Take that into consideration in our deliberations." -Vampire Ambassador of Nosferatu
Wed Aug 24, 2016, 1:21 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
"How much do you want for that dog?" "A life, for a life..."
Mon Aug 22, 2016, 12:23 PM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
YES! SOMEONE ELSE FINALLY SHOUTED! HUZZAH!
Fri Aug 12, 2016, 10:33 AM
SarahBleemel:iconsarahbleemel:
. . . fourth
Fri Aug 12, 2016, 4:43 AM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
Third... :(
Thu Aug 11, 2016, 12:26 AM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
Second?
Sun Jul 31, 2016, 12:24 AM
SlyFlySpyGuy:iconslyflyspyguy:
FIRST!
Sun Jul 31, 2016, 12:24 AM
Nobody

Forum

Donate

SlyFlySpyGuy has started a donation pool!
0 / 9,999
I wanna get as much art for Vesevia as I can.

You must be logged in to donate.
No one has donated yet. Be the first!

Week 1 Poll: Which is your favorite god so far? 

25%
1 deviant said Quinzirra, goddess of Age, Forgetfulness, Crankiness, and Magic
25%
1 deviant said Eingar the Rabid, god of Rage, Insanity, Ignorance, and Death
25%
1 deviant said Azur, god of Light, Holiness, Righteousness, and Purification
25%
1 deviant said Eve, goddess of Love, Purity, Perfection, and Hope
0%
No deviants said Ves, god of Murder, Destruction, Vengeance, and Arrogance
0%
No deviants said Va'ise, goddess of Plots, Undeath, Poison, and Night
0%
No deviants said Strom/Stromos, god of Narcissism, Obsession, Illusion, and Mastery

deviantID

SlyFlySpyGuy's Profile Picture
SlyFlySpyGuy
Yenz Maelstrom
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United States
My life is dedicated to one thing, and one thing only. Creating my own scifi/fantasy setting. I've worked long and hard (hehe long...hard) on it, and it's coming along pretty well. It's a bit generic in a way, but it's a mix of so many different myths and legends that I think it's exciting too. If you're interested in Vesevia, please message me.

Vesevia©™, and all characters, nations, gods, animals, etc pertaining to the Vesevia©™ setting, are the intellectual property of Jens Morrison, all rights reserved. If you wish to use the setting, or any part of the setting, please contact Jens Morrison (Yenz Maelstrom).

For those of you with Facebook accounts: www.facebook.com/Vesevia/
For those of you with Steam Accounts: steamcommunity.com/groups/Vese…
For those of you with an excess of money: www.gofundme.com/Vesevia
In case you're interested in extreme details: vesevia.wikia.com/wiki/Vesevia… <---This extremely WIP
Interests

Activity


This is my current template for each nation (I am still working on uploading the rest of the races, I am just going through a really hard time right now), please tell me what you think of it, and add any suggestions or additions:

  • Capital: (nation's capital)

  • Symbolic Animal: (animal that personifies this country)

  • Symbolic Colour: (colour that personifies this country)

  • Symbolic Plant: (plant that personifies this country)

  • Location: (where in Vesevia the capital is)

  • Foundation Date: (when it was first founded)

  • Predominant Religion(s): (who do they worship)

  • Predominant Race(s): (the race that most represents this nation)

  • Info: (explain things like how your government functions, how your economy works, whether your government is centralised, or if the lords have more power, what their culture is like, etc.)


  • Provinces:

  1. Province Name (Foundation Date)

  2. Primary Race(s):

  3. Primary Religion(s):


  • Cities:

  1. City Name (Foundation Date)

  2. Primary Race(s):

  3. Primary Religion(s):
In the off chance you've missed the news:

"In the case of our super-mighty preemptive strike being launched, it will completely and immediately wipe out not only U.S. imperialists’ invasion forces in South Korea and its surrounding areas but the U.S. mainland and reduce them to ashes." -Number One Best Korea
I am switching over from Facebook to something called 'Minds'. Or at least, that's the idea. I am going to try (TRY) to avoid politics, and just post as Vesevia from now on. We'll see how well I do.

In case anyone's interested: www.minds.com/yenzmaelstrom
I should start off by saying, this is a rambling thing that I don't expect anyone to read. But if you want to know more about me, at least from my perspective, go ahead and read.

I don't usually talk about myself, though I often think about myself. I am somewhat egocentric. Not in that, I don't consider others, I do consider others just as often as I consider myself. Only that I think inwardly a lot, and about how things will affect me. It's difficult to put into words. Well, I see myself as egocentric and see many of my actions as such. But I want people to be happy. I love to make people happy. I always have. I'm just terrible at it. I can make people laugh. I am good at that. But laughter in and of itself isn't enough to make people happy. I am not a very charitable person. I often feel like I should be, and I really WANT to be. But I put my family first...and I put myself first. I never MEAN to. I just do. I fight against my baser nature constantly. Whenever I am aware of it. But it's my natural state of being, so it's difficult to maintain awareness of it.

I am bipolar. I have manic days, and depressive days, and hypomanic days. And sometimes it switches off and on and off and on so rapidly that I can't tell which is which. Usually, I don't know that I'm manic until it gets to a certain point. Usually, after most of the damage is done. I have very few friends remaining, and it is mostly my doing. I really like people, though, and I don't want to be alone (not that I'm ever entirely alone, I'm happily married, with children, 2 dogs, a cat, and 2 chinchillas). But I mean alone in that I don't have as many friends as I use to, or sometimes need. I do have some very close/good friends. But I don't want to rely on them for ventilation since doing so puts an emotional burden on them. I honestly don't understand how my wife puts up with me.

When I'm manic, I'm hyper and all over the place. If it gets really bad, I'm very focused on a general idea (usually politics), but jumping from smaller parts of the larger picture to other parts of the larger picture at a pace too rapid for anyone else to follow along. I make lots of noise and jump and run and do general crazy stuff. I never hurt anyone, though. That's a worry that's always in my mind because some people with bipolar disorder do. And my whole life, I've been worried that I will hurt someone. So it's constantly a thought in my mind. I can't focus on things like I should be able to. The bouncing around makes it too difficult to write anything important down, or really even discuss it. Even when I can get the main idea to be something I actually WANT to discuss and focus on, like Vesevia. When I am manic, my brain seems to pick a random emotion and amplify it. My perception of reality itself alters, and everything becomes far more exaggerated than what it actually is. I am a very logical person, so this is especially hard on me.

When I'm depressed, I am sluggish, lazy in the extreme, no energy, no drive. NO drive. I can barely feed myself at times. The only times I've been suicidal, were when I took medication for it, and one other time when things got really bad, depression wise. I actually have a pretty awesome life, and I should be extremely happy. But I can't be. Even when I am happy, I am still depressed, which means I don't seem happy.

When I'm a mixture of the two, I generally get angry. Lots of energy, lots of anger (politics mostly). I think this is the hardest on my friends and family. I snap for seemingly no reason at everyone around me. Mania can be bad, but I'm usually happy. Just crazy. Mania + Depression at once (which doesn't make much sense to me), just makes me so angry at everything. This is when I'm most worried about what I'll do. Not that I think I'll be violent. Just that if I'm going to be violent, this is likely when it's going to happen.

Sometimes I just want someone to tie me down, and keep me from hurting anyone. Emotionally speaking.

I am very aware of my issues. But even so, I can't always tell when I'm manic or depressed. Depressed is a lot easier to notice, though. And even though I'm aware of my many drawbacks (which usually comes with depression), I am unable to truly defeat any of the issues. I try so very hard, all the time.

If I snap at you, I don't ask for your forgiveness or that you forget it. I only ask that you try to understand. Honestly, I can say with near 100% certainty that I would not forgive me if I met me, and I snapped at me. So I don't expect anyone else to. But I can also say that once I was aware of why I would try to understand. And that, I do expect and hope for. Not that it necessarily changes anything.

Okay. Rambling ramble complete. I might delete this later. I might not. Who knows?!

Here's a very accurate thingamajig I found on bipolar disorder: ibpf.org/article/when-you%E2%8…

And here's something else that's pretty accurate: scontent.fsnc1-5.fna.fbcdn.net…

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:iconmerlin111:
Merlin111 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav.  Much appreciated.
Reply
:iconslyflyspyguy:
SlyFlySpyGuy Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome.
Reply
:iconsuemart:
SueMArt Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Heart Balloon Emote Many thanks for faving Yenz, appreciated 5 seconds hug 
Reply
:iconslyflyspyguy:
SlyFlySpyGuy Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Many welcomes!
Reply
:iconsuemart:
SueMArt Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for faving again Yenz Thanks Shicken05 
Reply
:iconslyflyspyguy:
SlyFlySpyGuy Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome again!
Reply
:iconkeeper-loves-writing:
Thanks a lot for the faves! :)
Reply
:iconslyflyspyguy:
SlyFlySpyGuy Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome!
Reply
:iconbillie-bonce:
Billie-Bonce Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2017
Thank you for faving!
Reply
:iconslyflyspyguy:
SlyFlySpyGuy Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! :D
Reply
Add a Comment: